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07 June 2012 @ 07:57 pm
It has been a while since my last post. I just want to vent out what I am feeling right now. I would have written it in my personal journal, kaso kahit walang pangalan yun, super halata naman ang hand writing ko kung may makabasa man. At least dito, I am anonymous, only my best friends know I have this account. anyway. Forgive my random thoughts, dahil hindi organized ang utak ko right now. It sucks to be me sometimes. Well maybe just today, yosi and tears ako. Emo lang. haha. But then again, nothing will happen if I dwell on it. I am so frustrated, I want to reach my dreams, teach, be part of a big school someday and have my own pre-school. But as in today as of this moment, I feel so helpless. Enrollment for MA is on Saturday and I am so broke. I cannot start teaching if I do not get those units. And it seems like my family does not care at all. basta. anyway, i hope when I read this entry, after 5 years, medyo naprove ko na ang sarili ko.
05 December 2010 @ 05:23 pm
I really miss her. I feel like we are in a looooong distance relationship even if we are just three hour travel away from each other. haha

she went out with her family today.

im bored.

im watching the real l word.

seems nice.

01 December 2010 @ 11:37 pm
Jan 25 2010 was my latest entry (private post) haha

this has been my outlet for my  thoughts of love. as loser as it sounds, it is not easy being me. My mom asked me to make a video for church, as much as I love making videos, I can't seem to make the first step. Got distracted with the Christian songs I have been downloading for the video. AND THEY ARE REALLY GOOD. (HOW HE LOVES- David Crower Band, WALK ON THE WATER- Britt Nicole and ALWAYS-Switchfoot) I was thinking of putting it on my girlfriend's ipod. :) haha. how ironic. christian=homo. Gah!

anyway, i need a drink. I feel useless lately. haha. I'm waiting for a full length movie job as a production assistant but the final schedule was not given to us yet. I'm hanging, I already want to look for a different job pero sayang.

I miss my baby girl :( I wish she could visit me soon. haha

Christmas wishlist:
Gay Marriage be legalized in the country.
Christians accept homosexuals.
More time with my girl.

I feel better now. thanks blogyblogblog. :D
Current Mood: coldcold
22 February 2009 @ 09:45 pm
the best saturday of my life.

after too much planning.
all i need was the right moment.

i showed her a video. asked if she would take me.

she said yes. finally :')

feb 22 09
petron tambay

me: walang nagtetext sa kin :(
after a while..
checked phone.
one message.
"bleh! o: i love you! :o"

...even when i'm sober. :)

and that's why i know the risk is so worth it.

and that's why i know if you break me, it'll be hard to repair.

you're different from others.

so different.

(naging kami ng 1st gf ko-laseng ako. 1st kiss ng first ng lahat ng nakathing ko (6 sila)-laseng ako. 1st pagamins sa kanilang lahat-laseng ako. 1st time nagkayayaan-laseng ako. laseng ako. laseng ako. bow)
Current Mood: crazycrazy
10 January 2009 @ 05:11 am
...dahil natuto na ko.

i want to make this right.

because i don't want to lose you.

alam mo yan. bow.

sabi mo kahit kay justin timberlake di mo ko pag papalit.

sabi ko naman kahit kay mylene dizon di kita pagpapalit.


a deal's a deal.

10 January 2009 @ 05:04 am
...pero mas masaya mag slowmo. savor every moment.

(today. pumunta ka sa workplace ko na kalayolayo. you don't know how much it meant. if only i could take you home with me. if only you could take me home. hehe. i spent almost 3 hours (i think) with you. i wish we had spent more time. hehe)

i miss you already.

the first time we met

the first time we blurted out what we really felt

the first time we kissed

the first time i whispered "i love you"

-yun lang tulog ka. bleh. :)
Current Mood: happyhappy
19 December 2008 @ 10:51 pm
...i'm in trouble.

oh no me.
25 November 2008 @ 08:44 pm
posting a blog entry..
to express anger (even with the clues on who you are angry with)

is fine.

but posting a blog entry ..
para magparinig

is totally immature.

but if in a way of expressing your anger is making a parinig blog, i guess it would be fine, but still immature.

walang sense.haha

bottom line napakaimmature magparinig.

again, just an opinion.
12 November 2008 @ 02:47 pm
i was just thinking..

i'm physically weak with men.
i'm emotionally weak with women.
like i can control myself around women when i'm drunk because i respect them.
but around men, i..well..i
don't respect myself.

what does that make me?

err umm err..an alcoholic?

Current Mood: curiouscurious